Fashion, Life, Sightings

Life as it is. Can’t complain really.

I’ve just completed my first month of my career in Advertising!

Thing is I still haven’t sorted out paper work for my salary and stuff! I’ve been so couped up in the office that I don’t even have time to fill those out! How am I gonna get my salary! D:

How am I gonna get the things that I want?

Currently on my shopping list… these are what I am eyeing (below)!

Nike SB Dunk High “Red Devil”

Nike SB Dunk High "Red Devil"

A really nice Varsity Jacket

Varsity Jacket

I need to get a smart casual jacket too! In case we have an impromtu meeting with the clients or the big bosses!

Pharell Williams so good at his fashion sense!

A new electric guitar!

New electric guitar

Fancy bag to take to work 🙂 (Something like this would be shiek!)

ASOS Wolfgang Backpack

A fancy metal flask that speaks “I’m ECO Friendly!”

Fancy eco friendly flask

Fancy eco friendly flask

Perhaps I should have my own potted plant in the office 😉

Also, I gotta get myself a fancy mug for the office!

Punch Mug

Or a cool and medieval goblet!

Jason goblet (Now this is AWESOME)

Probably one of the most important things that I would need at work is a really good planner/or a calender/wall planner, as the nature of my job requires timely matters!

Moleskin planner

Probably a nice ukelele or a guitar at the office to take away the blues and have some fun! : )

Ukulele

Well… one day I would really wanna work like this!

Office by the beach

That would definitely be awesome to work in such an awesome environment. Probably something like in Phuket or Phi Phi!

Then I would feel like this everyday : )

STOKED!

Lovin’ life at the moment. Can’t complain really, cause God has given me so much more than what I asked for!

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Life, Sightings

It’s definitely love at first sight! Hello iphone 4G, sorry BB…

Have you seen a more beautiful gadget than an iphone 4G? Am in Love!

Gosh! I’ve never seen a slicker, prettier, classy, stylish, functional phone like the Apple iphone 4G.

Gosh… improved functions, better camera, HD vid recording, Retina view improved, Multitasking… wow… just wow… Great Job Steve Jobs! (Lol yes lame…)

Gosh.. it would be a nice 21st B’day present *Hint… hint… ;p

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Life, Music

The rabbit hole

was watching Alice in wonderland Cartoon version from the 1950s earlier today…

coming back to Malaysia is my Rabbit Hole… and I want to get out of it…. I have have been pondering this thought that I will never be able to settle down properly after leaving my good friends, stayed overseas in my “home” country… since touching down back to Malaysia… 5 years ago…

Till today.. i still feel like a Foreigner in my country of citizenship.. I guess it’s my passport ,the skin, the blood and that says i am a Malaysian… while my heart, my soul never really felt that way.. it was never settled..

Feels like i am homesick away from home…

Feels like I am all alone here…. Guess I can’t relate to anyone here… or share my deepest thoughts to… even to my family.. I know my God is there to be my comforter, my friend, my father in heaven, my friend, but I guess I don’t have that closeness with anyone here since 5 years back…

No doubt I meet new people and have new friends but friendship takes time to build… and I feel dis-attached

I feel like an outcast…Feels like I am going crazy…

My mix feelings for people has grown and I am developing Punch-Drunk emotions all the time….

When things don’t happen the way it was planned, false promises…

Is there something wrong with me??? Why don’t I get the same respect?

Seriously I am tired of people telling me “maybe” when what they meant was
“I will wait to see if my other friends has something better and more fun offers to do” or just “plain I don’t want to go. Just tell me straight so that i don’t have to waste time to feel this way and get last minute cancellations and false hope…

I guess I don’t get the commitments I deserve when I give so much of my time… I guess I over expect things and become disappointed in the end.

I have feelings that I want to express to the person I admire and a person who I got to know and care so much for in this short time I got to know her… but I can’t. Things run through my mind. I get jealous that you hang out with others more… I get sick of not being able to talk to you, I get pissed off that in the end i am just being used… not for real, as I have been warned that you are poison… which I’ve tried to ignore countless of times cause I hoped and believed that it was not true…

I make time for you, I deferred my plans and arrangements for you . I guess I do not have the courage to tell you how I feel about you.Fear that you don’t feel the same way? I do …

You consume my thoughts and mind.Thoughts of us spending time together..Your hair, your beauty, your smile, your voice,  your imperfectness, my memories and I guess I am not good at showing, expressing and telling you my feelings…

As the date of my departure comes closer.. All the more I don’t know… For this short time we know each other… I feel more that I need you like a addict to a drug…

I guess it’s never wrong that I have had to come back as I have had wonderful and also the most lowest and worst experiences of my life… to have to lose Torrie… It’s all in God’s plan i guess… as I am reminded of His perfect plan for my life..It is a turbulent roller coaster ride…and my personality and though have changeand grown… to be the person I am today…

How far does this Punch-Drunkedness go? How deep has the rabbit hole gone? I don’t know… I just want it to stop… and get away…

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Life, Music

Lord, You are always enough

I woke up singing to this song by Casting Crowns… I rejoice for my Savior reigns and lives in me! Made my day 😀

Mark on “Always Enough” from Casting Crowns on Vimeo.

Always Enough

In the drying weary land
LORD You are the rain
In the sea of shattered ones
Your love comes rushing in
You hold the world within Your hands
And see each tear that falls
Through every fire and every storm
You’re Always Enough
Always Enough

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Brings out to the ages
And You’re Always Enough for me

In the watches of the night
LORD You are my song
Hope is in the morning light
Your love shines like the dawn

You keep my heart in perfect peace
My life is in Your hands
When confusion hides my way
You’re Always Enough
Always Enough

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Brings out to the ages
And You’re Always Enough for me

And rejoice for my for my Saviour reigns reigns
And rejoice for the lives
God on how set me free and
Worthy is the LORD

And rejoice for my Saviour reigns
And rejoice for the lives in me
God on how set me free and
Worthy is the LORD

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Brings out to the ages
And You’re Always Enough for me

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Brings out to the ages
And You’re Always Enough

And rejoice for my Saviour reigns
And rejoice for the lives in me
God on how set me free and
Worthy is the LORD

In the drying weary land
LORD You are the rain

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Life

Carrying the coals & keeping the fire wood together…

Had an awesome time of prayer worship last night during worship practice! It’s the first service I’m serving this year for the YA/College service on Saturday evenings! Am ecstatic and can’t wait for Saturday for more! I’m coming expecting 😀

It is when this hit me…

During the course of my journey through life, the past few months has made me realized, by the signs and people that God has sent to me, that the ministries that I am in (leadership position in church and worship team) are front-line ministries, and how important it is to mindful of our own lives.

Indeed being a cell leader is like a Shepard who watches it’s flock, to guide, to facilitate, to be an intercessor, to assist, to be a humble and also to be a lover of God and His Word.

As in the leadership line of ministry, i learnt that each and every leader is an humble example of Jesus Christ. I realised that I need to keep my life always with my guard up in my actions, words and my mind.  It took me awhile to know that my Daily devotions and my relationship with God is essential as a leader will be a special target of the evil one. We are not perfect but I realized God was not looking for Perfection, but a willingness to yield to the Holy Spirit.

As for worship team, it is indeed a privilege and an honour to be able to serve as a guitarist on the worship team. Worship Team leads God’s people in praise and worship through welcoming and ushering in His Holy Spirit. We want to magnify and exalt the Lord in our hearts. When worshippers are drawn into God’s presence, they speak to Him, and listen to Him. We rejoice when our mission has been accomplished.

Before even talking about serving in whatever ministries in our lives, we have to be humble and honest before God and willingness to move.

To keep the fire burning, the wood and coals have to be placed together to keep everything connected to keep the fire burning. Just like our lives, our walk with God has to be prioritized, focused and get everything together, like if all the wood fire is spread out and not connected at all, the fire will dwindle and won’t last and stand, it will falter.

God, thank You for your prompts and reminders…

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Music, Sightings, TV Shows & Movies

They say it’s so Wonderful….I’m Through With Love

Remember in the Spiderman Movie where Kirsten Dunst as MJ singing twice? Once on stage performance at a theatre and once at a gig in a bar? 

I love those 2 songs! My God! I can listen to them 2 songs all day! Especially the 2nd song in this vid. “I’m Through With Love”

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