“You are a beautiful person, Doctor. Clearheaded. Strong. But you seem always to be dragging your heart along the ground. From now on, little by little, you must prepare yourself to face death. If you devote all of your future energy to living, you will not be able to die well. You must begin to shift gears, a little at a time. Living and dying are, in a sense, of equal value.”–Nimit in “Thailand”
– Haruki Murakami
- Be Yourself – Audioslave
- The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle – A Day To Remeber
- Blessed With A Curse – Bring Me The Horizon
- Meant To Live – Switchfoot
- If It Means A Lot To You – A Day To Remember
- Writing on the walls – Underoath
- With your friends (Long Drive) – Skrillex
- Thrones – Azure For Janne
- H.M.A.S Lookback – The Amity Affliction
- Sticks & Bricks – A Day To Remember
- We Are Rockstars – Does It Offend You, Yeah?
- Pull Out My Insides – Does It Offend You, Yeah?
- Head First In The River – Envy On The Coast
Lost my voice to scream a lullaby.
If i were a musician singing on the street I would probably get stones thrown at me. I be my imaginary audience.
If I were on the street playing an instrument. A passerby or two, would stop to listen, that’s about it really.
Backburners, scattered cards. things that happen in the past, I believe you came for a reason, that’s to ruin me, to bring me down to tears and draw scars and bruised knees, but You picked me up and made me turn again.
Now reality is here, knowing it will be a pebble off the shoreline, worn down to a sediment in the sands, lost in the depths of Mariana’s Trench, washed up in the seashore by night. High, dry, beached in the burning sun.
Oh how cruel when everything is just a beautiful portrait of your disguise,
a facade that’s what it has been all along. Little did I know I have been deceived
to believe , that is so cruel and deceitful.
When I fade out from the forefront, how would I have wanted to be remembered?
Did I live the life meant to be for me? Heck, I could easily let my impetuous self go,
to hear the recalcitrant cold chill whispers, transcending goosebumps up my spine,
to let go of the rope that burns my hands. The struggle to live and hold on
to a hope for better days to come.
This is the Hyde of me.
Triggered by the past, fueled the burning chambers of sorrows and wounds.
A civil war bared and fated to my hands and from within me, a burden to bear.
~Reach for the Sky~
On my personal note and how I’m coping with life…
I realized I’ve changed so much… And I find in this stage of my life, in fascination of learning more about who I am and what I am to be come.
I’ve so many things that I wanna do and achieve at work and out of work. My Career, Music, the bands, self improvement in my cooking, getting back into my fitness getting my room organized (which never happens), and hanging out and meeting new friends. serving in Church, food venturing and my deepest dreams.
It all bared down on me for the longest time that I should do something and this is the ultimate litmus test to get me to where I want me to be. I am at cross roads making major decisions now on where I want to be and with whom I want to share it with. I’ve been so blessed and touched by all the things that happened in my life since coming back from Bangkok, but now I need to hear the call and to make the right decisions to continue to move forward.
Right now I’ve got a lot on my mind on what I’ve to do next. I know after making this colossal of a decision, it is about moving on and not looking back, cause I know that God has a plan for me and it is up to me to make things happen, as nothing will happen if I do not move.
I know I probably sound emo right here… but I’m feeling anxious and excited at the same time to discover and wait for how I will paint my future.
I know here it may seem real vague on what I plan to do, so for those of you who want me to share my testimony and what I’m up to, lets talk and meet me in person over coffee and let me tell you. I’ve a plan to reach for the sky, I may not see them now, or I may just catch a glimps of the dream, but I know they are there hiding behind the clouds.
I tweet @danRFTS
I meet digital faces here.
It’s been awhile…
IT’s been a LLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNGGGGGGG time since I last blogged! I can even hear imaginary echoes in my dusty old blog.. I even start to think that “Diary of Danny” is so weird now, it definitely needs a major switch up in here!
See… I got distracted and just spent 15 mins playing on the guitar and forsaken this poor poor blog… sigh…
Hmm… So what have I been up to lately….
So lots of stuff has been happening since my last blog post on Sept 11, last year.
I’ve been so busy with getting used to the working life since I graduated. It still seems so surreal even till now that my uni and highschool days are over even tho they feel strangely like they all happened recently.
I liked the fact that my work place feels like another haven, a whole big and awesome Alpha family that I see every weekday, work with, have great lunches and conversations with and people that I can count on and be part of a team that make things work! It is definitely such a blessing to have colleagues like these, whom I’ve learnt so much from the past 6 months that I’ve been here, and everything went by so fast, and to me, I feel that I’ve known them longer than reality, that I can even have the privilege to call them my friends.
Yes we are indeed a crazy, wacky, funfilled, never ending energizer family. And that’s me in the bottom right of the photo (above), with my long hair. Now I’ve a total different hair do totally!
Well here you go (See above)! Short and more presentable I feel for work and anywhere. I feel good as well cause I’ve never had a satisfied hair cut ever in my life, this is pretty close to what I was looking for. So for those of you who didn’t know, that’s why I just kept my hair long, since I can’t get the hair cut that I want.
But fret not! I’m still the same Danny 😀 Seee…. (pict below)
Yes its me… and I love food… as you can see…
As you can see…. this comic above was made by my Alpha Boss. D: So yes… I’ve developed to be a character in a non-fiction comic! Crazy Alpha team!
Btw! I’ve also just finished my 6 months probation period at Alpha as of 15th Feb!
You are now lookin at the latest and confirmed ALPHA245 Brand Executive! : )
So that is a summary of my work life, I was really hoping for an increment, not now, but I know that I’m not to worry as He has surprises in stored for me, as I know that I gain everything thru Him when I place Him first. I really have to thank God for the doors He opened in my life and how He showed me that I can be who I’m today, a molded and changed person for the better, from me being who I was in the past, today and what He holds for me in the days to come.
I guess this is a cause of celebration that I’m now a permanent Burnetter and a proud Alpha245 BE.
For those of you who may not know yet…
We all have heard of what happened and Japan is in the state f National Emergency and a disaster that has brought me close to tears.
I’ve been praying for my Japanese friends who have family back in Japan and also for the people and the nation, and for the surrounding nations to swiftly send aid to Japan.
I’ve been thinking to myself, is prayer enough? And I came to a decision that I want to help as much as I can in this cause. I’m still a student, and there is only so much that I can do to help.
So I make the most of it and chose a few things that I could do.
- I just pre-ordered a “Army for Japan” Shirt, where my proceeds will be donated to the Japanese recovery effort by Salvation Army. (Click on the photo for the link)
- I’ve sent an online donation to the Australian Red Cross of AUD$20 , where all proceeds will be used to provide equipment, and medical supplies for this relief and to those in need.
- A group of my friends at university is putting together donations and sending at least one Shelter Box (of aid) to Japan to provide supplies which contains a shelter made by Vango (leading tent manufacturer), A Smile (which contains drawing pads, books, colour pens and crayons), Warmth and Protection (contains thermal blankets, insulated ground sheets, mosquito nets and water purification equipment), Self Sufficiency (a survival tool kit: hammer, axe, saw, shovel, wire cutters and other tools), Fit for purpose box for storage of things, a heart at home kit (containing: a multi stove kit (specially designed to use things in the environment to run the stove and to provide food for a family), and other equipments. So my mission is to donate a further $20 for this effort to provide at least a Shelter box to Japan. (Click on picture below for more info!)
- I will be fasting lunch for a week starting 14th March – 20th March 2011, as well as dedicating an extra half an hour of each of my work outs to the Japan & Pacific disaster.
So I am doing my part by donating $100 of what I can afford and also my time to this cause.
My friends, your family and citizens of Japan, my prayers are with you and I hope that my part can help you get back on to your feet.
So what are you going to do to help? Below are some links (with organizations and NGOs) on how you can help and make a difference:
Yesterday I was just talking to a good friend, a brother to me as well, and we were talking about how our actions can lead to consequences by the image that we allow people to portray on us amidst all the masks we put on ourselves, we might not realize or do not care about what would happen because of our actions. We may stumble people, cause people to judge, and building conspiracies against you, because you were not careful with your wayward ways and mistakes that cannot be undone, and cause heartbreak and lost of so many things that were long build memories and relationships which would take a long time to heal, amend, lost of accountability & trust or even lost forever.
I don’t know if any of you who are reading this have felt or experienced this way before, but through experiences I’ve had in my life sometimes we do not expect and see the goodness and evil that are around us, which does make us human after all. And we sometimes forget and know who our allies, brothers and friends really are. Just like a game of Mafia, where it’s about deceit vs. true honesty. Sometimes we do not realized till it’s too late that the true colours of people really show and hit a point of “I told you so” or “look at what you have done”
I am just so blessed and thankful that I came to realize who my true friends are and they are those who will stick by me, support me, will jump with me, and guard me when I fall or giving me advise when I’m uncertain.
I love you guys and we shall press on together. I do not want to mention names cause some of you will be reading this and you know who you are and you have been a blessing in my life. For those who are facing any uncertainties, problems I mentioned in the first paragraph, I suggest you look at yourselves at whether you are helping anyone or anything by judging people on the outside, and for those on the other end of the stick, do be accountable for your actions and what you may portray to others on the things that you do. You know who you are and what is right and wrong.