Life, Music

Hello from Bandung and more updates!

Hey guys!

I’m currently in Indonesia in the city of Bandung with An Honest Mistake, as we are recording our full fledged album with 11 tracks and a few bonuses to it. I’ve been here since last Thursday and will be here till this coming Monday! To be honest right now I can’t wait to get back home as I’ve been stuck in the studio and it has been tiring to record especially for violins as there are tonnes of parts to record as well as vocals with can be tiring for Darren and Sheryl.

Since touching down here, I’ve developed severe coughing and flu, and my body has been aching from sleeping on the floor. Definitely was a mistake not to bring a sleeping bag! Hopefully at the end of this week I would have time to head into the city to go shopping and a massage!

Other than that, I’ve been back from Australia since the middle of June (close to 2 months now), and I’ve been busy with the preperations of the band’s recording, catching up with friends and family, went for a church camp, and more importantly to send out my resumes and portfolio as I am now officially looking for a job and done with my study life! Definitely can’t wait to see what the world has to offer.

I’ve been pretty “religious” lately I guess cause now I’m at the point of my life where I have many major decisions to make in my life in this transitional period of looking out for myself very soon: working, find my own living spaces, a life partner, expenses, managing my own money and LIFE!

Its been so great to have many great friends that are continuously giving me the encouragement I need as I look for a job and to make the decisions in my life that will help me grow. I’ve been praying, reading the bible more regularly now and seeking God for answers to all my questions and the desires of my heart. And at the recent church camp, God did turn up and gave me the peace of mind and wisdom that I needed to make my decisions and priorities in life.

I’ve also been writing a few tunes myself and also writing more lyrics, drafts and drafts, as I’m still learning to write lyrics for songs from my heart.

I guess thats all the updates that I’ve for now : )

#nowplaying Saosin – Its Far Better To Learn

 

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Life, Music

The rabbit hole

was watching Alice in wonderland Cartoon version from the 1950s earlier today…

coming back to Malaysia is my Rabbit Hole… and I want to get out of it…. I have have been pondering this thought that I will never be able to settle down properly after leaving my good friends, stayed overseas in my “home” country… since touching down back to Malaysia… 5 years ago…

Till today.. i still feel like a Foreigner in my country of citizenship.. I guess it’s my passport ,the skin, the blood and that says i am a Malaysian… while my heart, my soul never really felt that way.. it was never settled..

Feels like i am homesick away from home…

Feels like I am all alone here…. Guess I can’t relate to anyone here… or share my deepest thoughts to… even to my family.. I know my God is there to be my comforter, my friend, my father in heaven, my friend, but I guess I don’t have that closeness with anyone here since 5 years back…

No doubt I meet new people and have new friends but friendship takes time to build… and I feel dis-attached

I feel like an outcast…Feels like I am going crazy…

My mix feelings for people has grown and I am developing Punch-Drunk emotions all the time….

When things don’t happen the way it was planned, false promises…

Is there something wrong with me??? Why don’t I get the same respect?

Seriously I am tired of people telling me “maybe” when what they meant was
“I will wait to see if my other friends has something better and more fun offers to do” or just “plain I don’t want to go. Just tell me straight so that i don’t have to waste time to feel this way and get last minute cancellations and false hope…

I guess I don’t get the commitments I deserve when I give so much of my time… I guess I over expect things and become disappointed in the end.

I have feelings that I want to express to the person I admire and a person who I got to know and care so much for in this short time I got to know her… but I can’t. Things run through my mind. I get jealous that you hang out with others more… I get sick of not being able to talk to you, I get pissed off that in the end i am just being used… not for real, as I have been warned that you are poison… which I’ve tried to ignore countless of times cause I hoped and believed that it was not true…

I make time for you, I deferred my plans and arrangements for you . I guess I do not have the courage to tell you how I feel about you.Fear that you don’t feel the same way? I do …

You consume my thoughts and mind.Thoughts of us spending time together..Your hair, your beauty, your smile, your voice,  your imperfectness, my memories and I guess I am not good at showing, expressing and telling you my feelings…

As the date of my departure comes closer.. All the more I don’t know… For this short time we know each other… I feel more that I need you like a addict to a drug…

I guess it’s never wrong that I have had to come back as I have had wonderful and also the most lowest and worst experiences of my life… to have to lose Torrie… It’s all in God’s plan i guess… as I am reminded of His perfect plan for my life..It is a turbulent roller coaster ride…and my personality and though have changeand grown… to be the person I am today…

How far does this Punch-Drunkedness go? How deep has the rabbit hole gone? I don’t know… I just want it to stop… and get away…

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Life

That’s what friends are for…

I found two posts by 2 bloggers and it really does voice out from my heart in the situation I am facing right now. Where I tried so hard and my efforts are in vain… Thank You to the authors of  beauty80 and Things I’ll Never Say for the two touching posts and it does touch my heart.

Below are the two posts that made my day and let me know that I am not the only one who is going through this or went through this….

Friends come and go.

I thought we’re friends. Like close friends. But recently, just recently. I’m feeling no connection at all. No conversation. Empty. Maybe i was wrong, i kept myself assuming we’re friends. Or maybe i’ve done something wrong? I don’t know. and I don’t care.

Yeah. Just now, I don’t care.

Then, there is a new friend of mine coming to me. Telling me her problems in life and friends. It was touching, of course.

She told me “I’m tired looking for real friends here in college”,

i told her. “Hey, don’t i look like a real friend to you?”

… then, a new friendship was born. I’m hoping this friendship to last long.

SIMPLE VS REAL – FRIENDS

Simple vs Real – FRIENDS

Anyone can stand by you when you are right, but a Friend will stand by you even when you are wrong…
A simple friend identifies himself when he calls. A real friend doesn’t have to.
A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life.
A real friend says, “What’s new with you?”
A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent.
A real friend says, “You’ve been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it.”
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn’t know your parents’ first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it’s not a friendship until after you’ve had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!

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Articles, Fashion

Patrick Robinson’s 7 Secrets of Style

Patrick Robinson

Patrick Robinson

Who is Patrick Robinson?

Patrick Robinson is a California-born American fashion designer who has worked for such names as Giorgio Armani, Anne Klein, Perry Ellis, and Paco Rabanne. A graduate from the Parsons School of Design, Robinson has been a member of the Council of Fashion Designers since 1994 and was named one of Vogue‘s 100 rising stars in 1996. During his 4-year tenure at Armani, he mananged to turn the brand’s ailing “Collezioni” line profitable before taking the position of head designer at Anne Klein in 1995.

In May 2007 Robinson designed an affordable collection for Target Corporation‘s Go International line. In 2007, Robinson was hired as the Head Designer for Gap, Inc.[1]

(Source here.)

Patrick Robinson’s 7 Secrets of Style

He’s made Gap cool again! Here are what he shares  on smarts on staying chic at any price!

1. Stand out in a Crowd
“Don’t wait for a special occasion to show off your inner and outer style,” says Robinson. “Reveal your individuality every day in your wardrobe but also in what makes you happy and what you believe in.”

2. Find the Jeans for Your Body
“I can only hope it’s a pair from Gap,” says the 42-year-old designer. “But nothing looks more effortless than denim jeans with some ease — to me, that’s the essential element of looking stylish.”

3. Invest in Good Jewelry
“I love a woman who buys her own pieces,” he says. “The best jewelry usually comes with a story, so there’s a special light in her eyes when she’s wearing it.”

4. Excel at the Unexpected
“I’m in awe when a woman rolls up her sleeves and repairs stuff around the house or fixes a car,” says Robinson, who has been married for eight years to a fashion editor. “Helplessness is attractive to some men, but put up drywall and I’m hooked.”

5. Know How to Buy a Suit for a Man
“Men see the big picture, but women take time to see the details when shopping,” asserts Robinson. “Train a man to zero in on the points that matter — or just buy it for him. He’s bound to look better.”

6. Lead a Conversation
“Maybe it’s because I’m a Southern gentleman at heart [he’s from Southern California], but to me, the ability to steer language eloquently is stylish and seductive. Great conversation makes a woman more beautiful.”

7. Trust the Classics
“A great slouchy blazer and a button-down shirt or a crewneck sweater are not boring if they are well fitted and paired with pieces that are singularly yours. The result is, you look put together as well as special.”

You heard it from the man guys!

DannyBoy

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